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tre History of England, with your Leave, I'll give you another Instance of that Party Writer's Want of Faithfulness
. Reviero, &c. Vol. I. p. 20,• Ten thousand of the Religious were at once turnid out a starving, with • bu: 40 Shillings a Piece in their pockets. But now this appears to be a notorious Fallhood, by the Records printed at the End of Battely's Cantuaria Sacra, and of Lewis's Antiquities of Fauresham Abby; where you may see with your own Eyes, the Names of the late religious Persons of the House of Christ Church in Canterbury, which were appointed to depart the same House with the yearly Pensions aligned and allotted to every of of them the 4th Day of April, Anno xxxi. Hen. VIII. The first Payment ta begin at the Feast of Michaelmass, next ensuing, for one balf Year, besides Records fir Money in Pocket, for present Subfiftance.
First, To the late Prior there Thomas Goldwell, 1.
The Names of the Monks of the late Monastery of Christ. Church in Canterbury, with their Offices, Rewards, and Pensions. The Office, Their Names,
I 1. s. d. Prior. Tho, Goldwell,
3 6 8 Johannes Menys, Preb.
nil. Nicholaus Clemenic,
3 1o Bartonal. Johannes Gerard
8 &c. Warrantum Hen. VIII. Johanni Caftlock, Abbati (Fauresham ] quo
illi conceditur annua Pensio centum Marcarum.
A Warrant was granted to every one of the Monks in the same Form, for their having the following Pensions. (Recorda Curiæ Augmentaronis.) Robert Chyllenden, Monk,
sco Shillings per Ann. Thomas Deve, Monk
Ann. Lohn Fylpott, Monk
4 Ann. &c. What ihall be done unto thee, thou falle Tongue?
The INCONSTANT or General LOVER.
Life, I have drawn it out by way of Amusement, and should be giad to see it in Print, if you think proper to honour it with a Place in
your Callestions; it may be of Service to People of both Sexes, and this may be a Motive strong enough to induce you, Sir, to print it.
My Father dying while I was very young, left me to the Care of a very honest Relation, who spar'd no Pains to improve my Fortune and Understanding. At the Age of 15 I was removid from one of our great
Schools; to the University. Enjoying now more Liberty, tho' I was thought not an idle Student, yet thro' this Freedom and the sprightly Warmth of Youth, I begun to discover my natural Temper, or rather my Temper began to discover itself; for Dissimulation is an Art I could never learn.
What I was first remarkable for was a free Manner of Conversatiort, such an Openness as my Acquaintance often told me, discovered me at firft Sight. If I spoke my Opinion of Men or Things, I always faid what I really thought, and this Freedom, with the Gaiety natural to my Age, made my Conversation agreeable and courted by People of the like Temper.
Among other of my Companions, I grew particularly acquainted with one Mr Widdin, a Pensioner of the same College. How I came to prefer him to others, I could not for some Time conjecture; he was about my Age and very handsome s but a thoughtful sedentary Life was fo fittle hisTaste, that, when he was retired to his Room, he would walk whiskling about it, to prevent, as he told me, the Fatigue of thinking. When he was abroad in the public Walks, which was as frequent as possible, the had an Air, that seem to say, Who’il go any where? He was visited sometimes by his Sifter, a young Lady of about 14, who had too mucke Beauty to be trusted at that Age, at'her Brother's Chamber without fage Attendant, tho' she was sent the oftner as she was a kind of Spy on her Brother's Behaviour. I thought her the handsomelt Creature I had ever beheld ; she was tall of her Age, had an exceeding fine Complexion, dark Hair, full black Eyes, Fire and Briskness which could be equalid in nothing but her Wit : Among other Qualities of Breeding what the moft valued herself upon, was talking French, an Accomplishment I had happily learnt at School. In all our Meetings we us'd to be eternally jab bering in that Language, such Freiicb as the Poet Chuscer says in his Time, the London Ladies us'd to talk.
-Down' at Stratford upon Row,
Such French as France did never krone, It was not long before the Mother, a Widow Lady, invited me to her Lodgings, which were very neat. She seem'd too young to be the Mo ther of two such Chiidren, but I heard afterwards, chat the had been run away with from a boarding School. The Entertainment was elegant, our Discourse at first serious, but lively enough before we parted. When I was thus admitted, my Visits became frequenter ; whenever I went 2broad their Lodgings always were in the Way: To be short, in less than a Year, I found that I prefer'd Mr Widdin che rest of myAcquaintance, on Account of his pretty Sister, who grew every Day more charming, at least in my Imagination ; her Brother and the were ever at Pique and Repique, and if I spoke, tho' what I faid was ever so indifferent, the had the Address to make it a Verdict in her Favour; she would sometimes put on fuch an agreeable Sauciness to me, as I thought bewitching, I grew every Day more in Love, and she was wild and entirely disengag d.
I was thus dceply in Love, before I knew myself in Danger, I never thought of asking myself what I was about, her Company was always charming, and that was enough. The young Rarian, that iva; the Lady's Name, as I thoughi, knew nothing of the ilatier, I had dcciar'd ng
thing: thing; the Mother took no Notice, whatever she might remark in my Looks, which, no doubt, betray'd sometimes what my Lips concealed. Whether she thought one of my Fortune, which was not mean, a defirable Match for her Daughter, whatever was the Rea on, she took no Notice; my Passion was in such an Oblivion, that I hardly discover'd it myfelf. But while I was wand'ring in this Labyrinth of Love, and amufed with the most agreeable Ideas, I was rous'd, by a Gentleman's making his Addrelles to my Mistress, who came recommended by her Mother's Uncle. He was young, tall and swarthy, and from a solemn Kind of Carriage, the witty Marian call'd him her Spaniard, and afterwards gave him the Name of Don Pachico.
This Gentleman had very little to say to his Mistress, in Conversation, while I had so much the Advantage as to keep the Company on my Side; but then he lrad Asliduity, and daudled, as Miss call'd it, and by his conftant Importunity, I found he got Ground of me every Day. I then awaked from my Dream, while Jealously confirm'd what I before but fufpected ; I discovered that I was in Love, I improv'd every Opportunity of Mewing it, but too late; Don Pacheco had gain'd the Ascendant with Miss, all svas going to a Conclusion, when her Mother suspecting Treachery in Don Pacheco, forbid him her Family and retir’d into the Country.
I took the first Opportunity of following 'em, accompanied by my friend the Brother. I thought to have found poor Marian quite disconfolate for the Loss of her Dear; but I was deceiv'd. She had seen a young Country Squire, whose Father was of superior Fortune, and therefore averle to the Match. The young Gentleman, who liked her well enough, was not as he said of such a puling Conttitution as to break his Heart for her, and to serve a Friend, such as he very obligingly call'd me, he could be content without her.
Thus I was left to run as it were by myself, and the fair Marian, who was by no means difficult, made me think myself every Day happier. It was now the latter End of the Hunting Season, and the Beginning of the Spring, thé gentle Season of Love. I was in the romantic Time of Life, and, as thought, belov'd by the Object of my Wishes. But from all this I was ipcedíly hurry'd; the good Man, my Guardian, was dying; I lew to lee him, and came Time enough to take my Farewe), and receive his last Advice. Out of respect to him, I forbore Writing a Week to my dear Marian, whom I had parted from with mutual Vows and Tears ; but I could now no longer forbear, I fent her a Letter, which she receiv'd as she was coming out of Church, where she had just been inarried to one Pedro, a Rival that I never dreamt of. Such was the End of my first Amour.
It might be expected that I should suffer fome Chagrin on this Occasion, I believe I cali'd the young Lady inconjlant, and some hard Name> ; but I did not indulge much Sorrow, nor do I remember that I was more than commonly fond of Solitude, Willow Walks, or murmuring Brooks.
I stay'd fone time in the Country, which became, as the Spring advanced, every Day more delightful, and went sometimes to Visit some young Neighbours that had been formerly my Schoolfeilows; for one of whom, I had ever such an Affection'as exceeded that of a Brother ; hic had a Sifter that was the Adiniration of all the Neighbourhood ; the had
the Refusal of all the best Matches in the County ; but while the engag'd fo deeply the Affection of others, she was, at least to all Appearance, infensible herself. She saw the rough loud-laughing Sportiman in her Company become well-behaved, and fupple as his Spaniel, and the lewd double-entendre Gallants, who are ever putting the Fair to the Blush, and representing that amiable Sex as-void of Modesty, change their Behaviour in her Company into a decent fearful Regard ; and all this without knowing that herself was the Cause of those strange Metamorphoses. She was a perfect Insensible: I added one to the Number of the Admirers of this Lady, the fair Serina; for as my Heart had neither the untam'd Wildness of the Tiger, nor the Hardness of a Rock, I thought I might submit without Disgrace to so triumphant a Beauty. I was now again in Love, but this second Fit had very different Symptoms from the former; it was of the Platonic kind; I was absent in Company, fond of being alone ; I wsit three Copies of Verses ; wou'd sometimes rove thro' the Woods and Meadows, and fit lift'ning to the Murmur of purling Brooks, and in the Height of my romantic Madness lie down and imp gine very fine Things. Out of this Revery I was rais'd by a friend, who came a.cross the Country to invite me to his House : I went with him, and we diverted ourselves very agreeably with rural Sports, Horse-races, and Country Assemblies. While I was at my Friend's, his Business sometimes calling him away, I was left frequently with a Relation of his, whom I shall call Miss Jolly. She was a fresh Country Girl, inclinable to be fat; her Breeding was such as is to be had in a genteel Country Family, she had Wit without Affectation, and a Temper that made her very engaging to those she could be free with. I was not at all enamoured with her at forft Sight; but by frequent Conversation I found a Passion ftealing upon me, and in a short Time was so far gone, that I fell to downright Courtship, which she received in such a Manner as discovered a timorous Modesty, but no Aversion. I proceeded therefore with as much Success as I could desire; my only Difficulty was to assure her of my Sincerity, which she had no Opinion of. I told her I might be inconstart, but as for my present Sincerity, I would make it appear beyond Dispuie: Her Answer was, All in good Time; adding, that as her Cousin and myself were to take a Journey into the West the Week following, there was no doubt of our meeting with Temptation in our Way, especially as we were to go to Bath, and therefore she chole to put me to the Tryal, fince it was better she knew my Turn of Mind, before she was too far engag d. I left her, and have never seen her since.
After parting with the unaffected Miss Jolly, my gayFriend and myself fet out for Bath; we foon enter'd into the Diversions of that agreeable Place, where people flock more for Company than Health, to avoid those Spectres Spleen and Solitude, which haunt many falhionable Country Seats as well as old Mansion-houses. I shall not describe how People here enjoy the Sweets of Society, which in my opinion they do to the greatest Perfection. They have Morning and Evening Allemblies; I saw no Diversions but what were innocent; and in Conversation, such a wellbred Freedom prevaile, as makes Society most engaging. I could willingly dwell on this Subject, as far more agreeable than contemplating my own Follies. I need not tell you that there were many beautiful young Ladies here, e
specially as it was the full Season ; nor after the Description I have gi. ven of myself, that I had a Heart not insensible of their Beauty. I forgot all the artless Innocence of Miss Jolly, as she said I would, tho' I had pro:efled to have a lasting Affection for her ; and I thought myself sincere, so little did I know my own Heart. You have read of the Philosopher's Als, placed at an equal Distance from two Burdens of Hay, in which Situation being equally tempted by both Burdens, the Philosopher concludes that, thro' Suspense which Side to incline to, the Als would ftarve.
Whether I should have been as long in fixing my Choice, I can't say, but such was my Suspense, if at ohe Time I was all Respect for a cold insenfible Beauty, I grew soon after quite enamoured with the sparkling Vivacity of another; and as I had been charmd with the artless Inno. cence of my Country Mistress, that Passion soon disappeared at the Sight of a welbred Beauty, whose graceful Easiness appeared as far beyond it, as the finest Strains of Music are preferable to the wild Harmony of Birds.
MyFriend insisted on my leaving the Place; I was not recovered from my Sufpense, and went away under a kind of Inchantment, which so much poffess'd my Imagination, that for some Days, I was in a profound Revery ; the pleasing Images of what I had seen dwelt so much in my Thought, that I was incapable of any other Reflections.
My Friend laughd at me; he was too gay and disengag'd in his Tem. per, to be so easily captivated. He introduced me into the Company of some brisk young Fellows, who despis’d the Arts of Venus; they were what they call Very Honest Fellows, whose Principle is to be “jovial “ while they may." These Gentlemen's Excellencies were bold Riding, never flinching ai a Bumper, singing Songs of Bacchus, such as Wrinkled Care deride, and laughing indifferently, with or without a Jeft.
This merry Company foon rous’d me out of my plealing Dream, I was willing to be thought an Honest Fellow; or, not to mince the Matter, thro'a false Modesty, 100 common in young Men, and an Eafine's in complying with the prevailing Humour of Company against one's Judgment, I gave into all their Merriment. I had no longer any Passion for the fair Sex; however, not that tender romantic Passion I had felt before ; the willingest began to seem the most desirable. Such was my Zeal for this honeft Cause, that having but a weak Constitution, such as could not bear any Excess, it was thought I should soon die a Martyr to it.
But kind Nature, as I grew worse, created in me a Loathing of all Drinking, upon which I grow dull, and was resolved to leave this Sete of Company. I took my Leave of some of 'em, and going to pay the same Compliment to one whom I call Bonifacio, from his jolly Countenance, he said I should not drink, as it was lo pernicious to me; and to amuse me that Evening he'd introduce me to a Neighbour, who had two handfome Daughters.
Accordingly I went, and while my Friend was carousing wi' the Gentleman of the House, I drank Tea wi' the Lady and her Daughters ; the youngest (I Mall say nothing of the other) was the handlomeit Creature I ever saw; my Spirits were all alive; her Wit, at least to my Imagination, was equal to her Beauty, which I shall not disgrace by artempting to describe it. My Friend was too honest to be a Flincher, and I had no Desire to go awav. Whether they obierv'd any Thing parti