help us with her prayers; now she is with the general assembly and church of the first-born, whose names are written in heaven, with the spirits of the just made perfect. But her soul will rejoice with the angels of God if she looks down and sees us all coming up to where we ought to be. God grant that her prayers may be fulfilled in us. Let us examine ourselves, brethren; let us cast out the stumblingblock, that the way of the Lord may be prepared." The words, simple in themselves, became powerful by the atmosphere of deep feeling into which they were uttered; there were those solemn pauses, that breathless stillness, those repressed breathings, that magnetic sympathy that unites souls under the power of one overshadowing conviction. When the Doctor sat down, suddenly there was a slight movement, and from a dark back seat rose the gaunt form of Zeph Higgins. He was deathly pale, and his form trembled with emotion. Every eye was fixed upon him, and people drew in their breath, with involuntary surprise and suspense. "Wal, I must speak," he said. 'I'm a stumbling-block. I've allers ben one. I hain't never ben a Christian, that's jest the truth on't. I never hed oughter 'a' ben in the church. I've ben all wrong-wrong--WRONG! I knew I was wrong, but I wouldn't give up. It's ben jest my awful WILL. I've set up my will agin God Almighty. I've set it agin my neighbors-agin the minister and agin the church. And now the Lord's come out agin me; he's struck me down. I know he's got a right-he can do what he pleases-but I ain't resigned-not a grain. I submit 'cause I can't help myself; but my heart's hard and wicked. I expect my day of grace is over. I ain't a Christian, and I can't be, and I shall go to hell at last, and sarve me right!" And Zeph sat down, grim and stony, and the neighbors looked one on another in a sort of consternation. There was a terrible earnestness in those words that seemed to appall every one and prevent any from uttering the ordinary commonplaces of religious exhortation. For a few moments the circle was silent as the grave, when Dr. Cushing said, Brethren, let us pray;" and in his prayer ho seemed to rise above earth and draw his whole flock, with all their sins, and needs, and wants, into the presencechamber of heaven. He prayed that the light of heaven might shine into the darkened spirit of their brother; that he might give himself up utterly to the will of God; that we might all do it, that we might become as little children in the kingdom of heaven. With the wise tact which distinguished his ministry he closed the meeting immediately after the prayer with one or two serious words of exhortation. He feared lest what had been gained in impression might be talked away did he hold the meeting open to the well-meant, sincere, but uninstructed efforts of the brethren to meet a case like that which had been laid open before them. After the service was over and the throng slowly dispersed, Zeph remained in his place, rigid and still. One or two approached to speak to him; there was in fact a tide of genuine sympathy and brotherly feeling that longed to express itself. He might have been caught up in this powerful current and borne into a haven of peace, had he been one to trust himself to the help of others; but he looked neither to the right nor to the left; his eyes were fixed on the floor; his brown, bony hands held his old straw hat in a crushing grasp; his whole attitude and aspect were repelling and stern to such a degree that none dared address him. The crowd slowly passed on and out. Zeph sat alone, as he thought; but the minister, his wife, and little Dolly had remained at the upper end of the room. Suddenly, as if sent by an irresistible impulse, Dolly stepped rapidly down the room and with eager gaze laid her pretty little timid hand upon his shoulder, crying, in a voice tremulous at once with fear and with intensity, "O, why do you say that you can not be a Christian? Don't you know that Christ loves you?" Christ loves you! The words thrilled through his soul with a strange, new power; he opened his eyes and looked astonished into the little earnest, pleading face. "Christ loves you," she repeated; “oh, do believe it!" "Loves me!" he said, slowly. "Why should he?" "But he does; he loves us all. He died for us. He died for you. Oh, believe it. He'll help you; he'll make you feel right. Only trust him. Please say you will!” Zeph looked at the little face earnestly, in a softened, wondering way. A tear slowly stole down his hard cheek. Thank'e, dear child," he said. "You will believe it?" "I'll try." "You will trust Him?" Zeph paused a moment, then rose up with a new and different expression in his face, and said, in a subdued and earnest voice, "I will." "Amen!" said the Doctor, who stood listening; and he silently grasped the old man's hand. A REFORMED MAN'S LAMENT.-Anna Linden. You think my heart is stern and cold And think me feeble, worn, and old, Not time, but sorrow, stern and deep, In manhood's early prime and power They said when she was by my side I wooed and won her tender heart, I took the solemn marriage vow But bitter memories haunt my soul, And sting my heart and brain; For though I loved her, by my hand She was an angel, and she made It might have lasted, had I given We shared two years of wedded bliss, A welcome pledge of mutual love My fair young wife, without a tear, And tried to cheer and urge me on, I would not hear her words of hope, I yielded like a feeble reed, And when the tempter came, I sowed the seed that cost two lives I was unworthy of the trust Of aught so pure and sweet; And should have shunned, with manly strength, I lost what I might yet have gained I tortured my fair, gentle wife That kindled meteor rays of hope She plead with me, and prayed for me; I'd promise and forget; And heeded not the life-wrung tears With which her eyes were wet. And oft I gave the bitter words That made her heart-strings break; When she, the angel-hearted one, I knew that she was very frail, May God forgive the bitter wrongs DDDDD And though she drooped beneath the weight It did not stay me in the course The tender child drooped like a flower With half-unconscious brain; I felt the gnawings of remorse, In cruel sorrow, want, and woe Then I awoke and saw it all,— My fiendish guilt and sin, And prayed that hell might open wide I raved in frenzied agony No tongue can ever tell; And knelt beside her coffined form I've kept the vow and kept the pledge An angel presence lights the path Long at the foot of Calvary's cross I prayed to be forgiven; And prayed for guiding strength on earth, I've told you of my bitter past, To warn you, ere too late, To touch not alcoholic fire, To tempt so dark a fate. By all the fair and holy things Let temperance dwell in every heart, And comfort every hearth. |