And, in a troubled sea of passion tost, Thus to disburden sought with sad complaint :- "O miserable of happy! Is this the end Of this new glorious World, and me so late The glory of that glory? who now, become Accursed of blessed, hide me from the face Of God, whom to behold was then my highth Of happiness! Yet well, if here would end The misery! I deserved it, and would bear My own deservings. But this will not serve: All that I eat or drink, or shall beget, Is propagated curse. O voice, once heard Delightfully, 'Increase and multiply;' Now death to hear! for what can I increase Or multiply but curses on my head? Who, of all ages to succeed, but, feeling The evil on him brought by me, will curse My head? Ill fare our Ancestor impure! For this we may thank Adam!' but his thanks Shall be the execration. So, besides Mine own that bide upon me, all from me Shall with a fierce reflux on me redound— On me, as on their natural centre, light; Heavy, though in their place. O fleeting joys Of Paradise, dear bought with lasting woes! Did I request thee, Maker, from my clay To mould me Man? Did I solicit thee From darkness to promote me, or here place In this delicious Garden? As my will Concurred not to my being, it were but right And equal to reduce me to my dust, Desirous to resign and render back All I received, unable to perform
Thy terms too hard, by which I was to hold The good I sought not. To the loss of that, Sufficient penalty, why hast thou added The sense of endless woes? Inexplicable Thy justice seems. Yet, to say truth, too late I thus contest; then should have been refused Those terms, whatever, when they were proposed. Thou didst accept them: wilt thou enjoy the good, Then cavil the conditions? And, though God Made thee without thy leave, what if thy son Prove disobedient, and, reproved, retort, 'Wherefore didst thou beget me? I sought it not!' Wouldst thou admit for his contempt of thee That proud excuse? yet him not thy election,
But natural necessity, begot.
God made thee of choice his own, and of his own To serve him; thy reward was of his grace; Thy punishment, then, justly is at his will. Be it so, for I submit; his doom is fair, That dust I am, and shall to dust return. O welcome hour whenever! Why delays His hand to execute what his decree Fixed on this day? Why do I overlive? Why am I mocked with death, and lengthened out To deathless pain? How gladly would I meet Mortality, my sentence, and be earth Insensible! how glad would lay me down As in my mother's lap! There I should rest, And sleep secure; his dreadful voice no more Would thunder in my ears; no fear of worse To me and to my offspring would torment me With cruel expectation. Yet one doubt Pursues me still-lest all I cannot die ; Lest that pure breath of life, the Spirit of Man Which God inspired, cannot together perish With this corporeal clod. Then, in the grave, Or in some other dismal place, who knows But I shall die a living death? O thought Horrid, if true! Yet why? It was but breath Of life that sinned: what dies but what had life And sin? The body properly hath neither. All of me, then, shall die: let this appease The doubt, since human reach no further knows. For, though the Lord of all be infinite,
Is his wrath also? Be it, Man is not so,
But mortal doomed. How can he exercise Wrath without end on Man, whom death must end? Can he make deathless death? That were to make Strange contradiction; which to God himself Impossible is held, as argument
Of weakness, not of power. Will he draw out, For anger's sake, finite to infinite
In punished Man, to satisfy his rigour Satisfied never? That were to extend His sentence beyond dust and Nature's law; By which all causes else according still To the reception of their matter act,
Not to the extent of their own sphere. But say That death be not one stroke, as I supposed, Bereaving sense, but endless misery From this day onward, which I feel begun
Both in me and without me, and so last To perpetuity-Ay me! that fear Comes thundering back with dreadful revolution On my defenceless head! Both Death and I Am found eternal, and incorporate both : Nor I on my part single; in me all Posterity stands cursed. Fair patrimony That I must leave ye, sons! Oh, were I able To waste it all myself, and leave ye none! So disinherited, how would ye bless
Me, now your curse! Ah, why should all Mankind, For one man's fault, thus guiltless be condemned? If guiltless! But from me what can proceed But all corrupt—both mind and will depraved Not to do only, but to will the same
With me? How can they, then, acquitted stand In sight of God? Him, after all disputes, Forced I absolve. All my evasions vain And reasonings, though through mazes, lead me still But to my own conviction: first and last
On me, me only, as the source and spring Of all corruption, all the blame lights due.
So might the wrath! Fond wish! couldst thou support That burden, heavier than the Earth to bear- Than all the world much heavier, though divided With that bad Woman? Thus, what thou desir'st, And what thou fear'st, alike destroys all hope Of refuge, and concludes thee miserable Beyond all past example and future-
To Satan only like, both crime and doom. O Conscience! into what abyss of fears And horrors hast thou driven me; out of which I find no way, from deep to deeper plunged!" Thus Adam to himself lamented loud
Through the still night—not now, as ere Man fell, Wholesome and cool and mild, but with black air Accompanied, with damps and dreadful gloom; Which to his evil conscience represented All things with double terror. On the ground Outstretched he lay, on the cold ground, and oft Cursed his creation; Death as oft accused Of tardy execution, since denounced
The day of his offence. "Why comes not Death," Said he, "with one thrice-acceptable stroke
To end me? Shall Truth fail to keep her word, Justice divine not hasten to be just? But Death comes not at call; Justice divine
Mends not her slowest pace for prayers or cries. O woods, O fountains, hillocks, dales, and bowers! With other echo late I taught your shades To answer, and resound far other song." Whom thus afflicted when sad Eve beheld, Desolate where she sat, approaching nigh, Soft words to his fierce passion she assayed; But her, with stern regard, he thus repelled:- "Out of my sight, thou serpent! That name best Befits thee, with him leagued, thyself as false And hateful: nothing wants, but that thy shape Like his, and colour serpentine, may show Thy inward fraud, to warn all creatures from thee Henceforth, lest that too heavenly form, pretended To hellish falsehood, snare them. But for thee I had persisted happy, had not thy pride And wandering vanity, when least was safe, Rejected my forewarning, and disdained Not to be trusted--longing to be seen, Though by the Devil himself; him overweening To overreach; but, with the Serpent meeting, Fooled and beguiled; by him thou, I by thee, To trust thee from my side, imagined wise, Constant, mature, proof against all assaults, And understood not all was but a show, Rather than solid virtue, all but a rib Crooked by nature-bent, as now appears, More to the part sinister-from me drawn ; Well if thrown out, as supernumerary To my just number found! Oh, why did God, Creator wise, that peopled highest Heaven With Spirits masculine, create at last This novelty on Earth, this fair defect Of Nature, and not fill the World at once With men as Angels, without feminine; Or find some other way to generate Mankind? This mischief had not then befallen, And more that shall befall-innumerable Disturbances on Earth through female snares, And strait conjunction with this sex. For either He never shall find out fit mate, but such As some misfortune brings him, or mistake; Or whom he wishes most shall seldom gain, Through her perverseness, but shall see her gained By a far worse, or, if she love, withheld By parents; or his happiest choice too late Shall meet, already linked and wedlock-bound
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To a fell adversary, his hate or shame: Which infinite calamity shall cause
To human life, and household peace confound." He added not, and from her turned; but Eve, Not so repulsed, with tears that ceased not flowing, And tresses all disordered, at his feet Fell humble, and, embracing them, besought His peace, and thus proceeded in her plaint:- "Forsake me not thus, Adam! witness Heaven What love sincere and reverence in my heart I bear thee, and unweeting have offended, Unhappily deceived! Thy suppliant
I beg, and clasp thy knees; bereave me not Whereon I live, thy gentle looks, thy aid, Thy counsel in this uttermost distress, My only strength and stay. Forlorn of thee, Whither shall I betake me, where subsist? While yet we live, scarce one short hour perhaps, Between us two let there be peace; both joining, As joined in injuries, one enmity Against a foe by doom express assigned us, That cruel Serpent. On me exercise not Thy hatred for this misery befallen- On me already lost, me than thyself
More miserable. Both have sinned; but thou Against God only; I against God and thee, And to the place of judgment will return, There with my cries importune Heaven, that all The sentence, from thy head removed, may light On me, sole cause to thee of all this woe, Me, me only, just object of His ire."
She ended, weeping; and her lowly plight, Immovable till peace obtained from fault Acknowledged and deplored, in Adam wrought Commiseration. Soon his heart relented Towards her, his life so late, and sole delight, Now at his feet submissive in distress- Creature so fair his reconcilement seeking, His counsel whom she had displeased, his aid. As one disarmed, his anger all he lost,
And thus with peaceful words upraised her soon:—
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Unwary, and too desirous, as before
So now, of what thou know'st not, who desir'st
The punishment all on thyself! Alas!
Bear thine own first, ill able to sustain
His full wrath whose thou feel'st as yet least part, And my, displeasure bear'st so ill. If prayers
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