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tell his disciples he goeth before you into Galilee: there shall ye see him.' I was encouraged and enabled to pray, believing I should see Jesus at home. I returned that night, and found Mrs. G. She prayed for me; and the Predestinarian had no other plea, but Lord, thou art no respecter of persons.' He proved he was not, by blessing me. I was in a moment enabled to lay hold on Jesus, and found salvation by simple faith. He assured me, the Lord, the King, was in the midst of me, and that I should see evil no more. I now blessed him who had visited and redeemed me, and was become my wisdom, righteousness, sanctification, and redemption.' I saw Jesus altogether lovely, and knew that he was mine in all his offices. And, glory be to him! He now reigns in my heart without a rival. I find no will but his. I feel no pride; nor any affection but what is placed on him. I know it is by faith I stand, and that watching unto prayer must be the guard of faith. I am happy in God this moment, and I believe for the next. I have often read the chapter you mention, (1 Cor. xiii.) and compared my heart and life with it. In so doing, I feel my short-comings, and the need I have of the atoning blood. Yet I dare not say, I do not feel a measure of the love there · described, though I am not all I shall be. I desire to be lost in that love which passeth knowledge. I see the just shall live by faith; and unto me, who am less than the least of all saints, is this grace given. If I were an archangel, I should veil my face before him, and let silence speak his praise!"

The following account is given by one who was an eye and ear witness of what she relates.

1. "In the beginning of November, she seemed to have a foresight of what was coming upon her, and used frequently to sing these words:

"When pain o'er this weak flesh prevails,

With lamb-like patience arm my breast.'

And when she sent to me, to let me know she was ill, she wrote in her note, I suffer the will of Jesus. All he sends is sweetened by his love. I am as happy as if I heard a voice say,

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"For me my elder brethren stay,
And angels beckon me away,

And Jesus bids me come."

2. Upon my telling her, I cannot choose life or death for you, she said, I asked the Lord, that if it were his will, I might die first. And he told me, you should survive me, and that you should close my eyes.' When we perceived it was the small-pox, I said to her, My dear, you will not be frighted if I tell you what is your distemper. She said, 'I cannot be frighted at his will.'

3. "The distemper was soon very heavy upon her. But so much the more was her faith strengthened. Tuesday, Nov. 19, she said to me, I have been worshipping before the throne in a glorious manner, my soul was so let into God.' I said, Did the Lord give you any particular promise? 'No,' replied she, it was all

The sacred awe that dares not move,

And all the silent heaven of love.'

4. "On Thursday, upon my asking, What have you to say to me? She said, 'Nay, nothing but what you know already: God is love.' I asked, Have you any particular promise? She replied, "I do not seem to want any, I can live without. I shall die a lump of deformity, but shall meet you all glorious. And meantime I shall still have fellowship with your spirit.'

5. "Mr. M. asked, what she thought the most excellent way to walk in, and what were its chief hinderances? She answered, "The greatest hinderance generally is from the natural constitution. It was mine, to be reserved, to be very quiet, to suffer much, and to say little. Some may think one way more excellent, and some another. But the thing is, to live in the will of God. For some months past, when I have been particularly devoted to this, I have felt such a guidance of the Spirit, and the unction which I have received from the Holy One, has so taught me all things, that I needed not any man should teach me, save as this anointing teacheth.'

6. "On Friday morning she said, 'I believe I shall die.' She then sat up in bed, and said, 'Lord, I bless thee, that thou art ever with me, and all thou hast is mine. Thy love is greater than my weakness, greater than my helplessness, greater than my unworthiness. And glory be to thee, O Jesus, thou art my brother. Let me comprehend with all saints, the length, and breadth, and depth, and heighth of thy love. Bless these, (some that were present): let them be every moment exercised in all things, as thou wouldest have them to be.'

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7. "Some hours after, it seemed as if the agonies of death were just coming upon her. But her face was full of smiles of triumph, and she clapped her hands for joy. Mrs. C. said, 'My dear, you are more than conqueror, through the blood of the Lamb.' She answered, Yes, O yes: sweet Jesus! O death, where is thy sting?' She then lay as in a dose for some time. Afterwards she strove to speak, but could not. However, she testified her love by shaking hands with all in the room.

8. "Mr. W. then came. She said, 'Sir, I did not know that I should live to see you. But I am glad the Lord has given me this opportunity, and likewise power to speak to you. I love you. You have always preached the strictest doctrine; and I loved to follow it. Do so still, whoever is pleased or displeased.' He asked, 'Do you now believe you are saved from sin?' She said, 'Yes; I have had no doubt of it for many months. That I ever had, was because I did not abide in the faith. I now feel, I have kept the faith; and perfect love casteth out all fear. As to you, the Lord promised me, your latter works should exceed your former, though I do not live to see it.—I have been a great enthusiast as they term it, these six months; but never lived so near the heart of Christ in my life. You, Sir, desire to comfort the hearts of hundreds, by following that simplicity your soul loves.'

9. "To one who had received the love of God under her prayer, she said, 'I feel I have not followed a cunningly devised fable; for I am as happy as I can live. Do you

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press on, and stop not short of the mark.' she said, Love Christ; he loves you. see you at the right hand of God.' But from another star in glory, so shall it be in the resurrection.' I charge you in the presence of God, meet me in that day all glorious within. Avoid all conformity to the world. You are robbed of many of your privileges. I know I shall be found blameless. Do you labour to be found of him in peace, without spot.'

10. "Saturday morning she prayed nearly as follows: 'I know, my Lord, my life is prolonged, only to do thy will. And though I should never eat or drink more, (she had not swallowed any thing for near eight and twenty hours), thy will be done. I am willing to be kept so a twelvemonth. 'Man liveth not by bread alone.' I praise thee that there is not a shadow of complaining in our streets. In that sense we know not what sickness means. Indeed, Lord, 'neither life, nor death, nor things present, nor things to come, no, nor any creature shall separate us from thy love one moment.' Bless these, that there may be no lack in their souls. I believe there shall not. I pray in faith.'

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"On Sunday and Monday she was light-headed, but sensible at times. It then plainly appeared her heart was still in heaven. One said to her, Jesus is our mark.' She replied, I have but one mark, I am all spiritual.' Miss M. said to her, You dwell in God.' She answered, 'Altogether.' A person asked her, 'Do you love me?? She said, 'O, I love Christ: I love my Christ.' another she said, 'I shall not long be here; Jesus is cious, very precious indeed.' She said to Miss M. Lord is very good. He keeps my soul above all.' fifteen hours before she died, she was in strong con-vulsions; her sufferings were extreme. One said, You are made perfect through sufferings.' She said, 'More and more so.' After lying quiet some time, she said, Lord, thou art strong!' Then pausing a considerable space, she uttered her last words, My Jesus is all in all to me glory be to him through time and eternity.' After

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25. The next year the number of those who believed they were saved from sin, still increasing, I judged it needful to publish, chiefly for their use, Farther Thoughts on Christian Perfection.

Q. 1. How is "Christ the end of the law for righteousness to every one that believeth?" Rom. x. 4.

A. In order to understand this, you must understand what law is here spoken of. And this I apprehend, is, 1. The Mosaic Dispensation; which St. Paul continually speaks of as one, though containing three parts, the political, moral, and ceremonial. 2. The Adamic law, that given to Adam in innocence, properly called, "the law of works." This is in substance the same with the Angelic Law, being common to angels and men. It required that man should use to the glory of God, all the powers with which he was created. Now he was created free from any defect, either in his understanding or his affections. His body was then no clog to the mind; it did not hinder his apprehending all things clearly, judging truly concerning them, and reasoning justly; if he reasoned at all. I say, "If he reasoned:" for possibly he did not. Perhaps he had no need of reasoning, till his corruptible body pressed down the mind, and impaired its native faculties. Perhaps, till then, the mind saw every truth that offered, as directly as the eye now sees the light.

Consequently this law, proportioned to his original powers, required that he should always think, always speak, and always act precisely right, in every point whatever. He was well able so to do. And God could not but require the service he was able to pay.

But Adam fell: and his incorruptible body became corruptible and ever since it is a clog to the soul, and hinders its operations. Hence, at present no child of man can at all times apprehend clearly, or judge truly. And where either the judgment or apprehension is wrong, it is impossible to reason justly. Therefore it is as natural for a man

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