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them,—why, I could put up my hand, and Miss Thwaites. He was a fine, dashing touch them and the plot of grass before fellow then, and looked well in the lightthe door now looked no bigger than a table- blue and silver of the Madras cavalry, and cloth; and the tree in the middle which it she was the belle of the ball-room. When was one of my first youthful ambitions to she floated through the quadrille, all gauze climb—what a giddy height it then seem and beauty, men quoted that oft-spoken ed !-had now dwindled into a stinted line, " A thing of beauty is a joy forever." shrub. Memory had shown me these We dare say young Scarlet often whisthings through a magnifying-glass, and pered that sentiment. But that is twelve now experience brought me a pair of di- years ago, and in twelve years fact and minishing spectacles. It is strange, how- memory have been working and playing ever, what vitality these delusions have, in their wonted fashion.
Well, young and how they last and renew themselves! Scarlet went, and if you want to know Whenever I visit the old place, I find that what he did, you may look at the dismy impressions need to be corrected. patches, where his name is coupled with Somehow, I have expected to find things the thanks of the general a good many on a larger scale, and feel a faint sort of times. From more private sources of insurprise at their littleness; yet I know all formation, I can tell you that all those the while how the matter stands, but twelve years he wrote letters-such letmemory is so subtile that we cannot help it ters! as glowing as the sun he was under playing tricks with us.
—to his lady-love. Those letters—just It is not only with things and places think of it!-all that large bundle of penthat this happens; the same fancies beset and-ink ardor and warmth, Miss Thwaites us with regard to persons. A friend of ruthlessly burned one evening last month! mine used to be eloquent about a lovely And she herself had written letters, also, child—a girl he knew years ago. From during all those twelve years; such letters ! the way he spoke of her, she must have full of affection, and as gentle in their been a cherub (minus the wings, of course) lovingness as the pale moonlight of her at ten ; but old Time plied his pinions, and own native skies. Those letters possibly, she became twice ten. He went to see if Scarlet has them yet, will be torn up her the other day, not expecting of course for pipe-lights! And Scarlet came back, to find a little romp in a short frock, ready | and, as the reader may guess, did not to rush at him and devour him with kisses want to marry Miss Thwaites; and she -he was a much too sensible man for that did not break her heart about it. He had —but expecting I hardly know what,-a been writing to the ball-room sylph of seraph, perhaps, grown out of the cherub. whom I have already spoken, and not the Ah! that rough hand of reality, how hard stout lady with a waist not fit to be seen it came down upon him! He did not see in a waltz, into which Miss Thwaites had a seraph at all; he could not even trace grown at thirty-two: and she had disthe marks of the cherub. He saw a young patched to the post-office in St. Martin'slady with the smallest of waists, and the le-Grand, every time an Indian mail was stiffest of backs, and the most inflexible of made up, a' tender missive, not to that shoulders, and the tightest of corkscrewy middle-aged hero with a thick, heavy ringlets, and a complexion only fit to be mustache, and the scar left by a Sikh tulseen by gas-light, and hardly then! Ten war across the bridge of his nose, and a years had done all this, and brought him complexion compounded of yellow ocher all the while visions of beauty. I am and mahogany, the joint effects of a tropafraid it will destroy a faith in him-a ical sun and a liver complaint, but to young faith in cherubs, and what might come of George Scarlet, as he was the first time them. I greatly fear that when a lovely, he donned his epaulets, and the last time rosy-faced child springs to his knee again, she danced with him. Ah! memory had he will see in perspective that gas-light something to answer for in this case. Venus of twenty !
Memory had smothered good sense. These Something like that happens to every- two people, if they had met at thirty-two body; sometimes for good, sometimes, at for the first time, might have liked each least so it appears, for evil. It was for other well enough, but they had now been evil when young Scarlet went to India, for living for twelve years on memory and example, and left his plighted troth with l imagination, and could not bear the con
trast between what they once had been does, it is only of the good that came out and now were.
of them ; false friends they have had, and The memory, however, of what people have met with unkindness and ingratitude, have been has its pleasant side also. Good as who has not ? but memory has not old Mr. and Mrs. Partridge, and plenty of chronicled these things, or, if she has, it is other ancient couples, are instances of this. in a sort of debtor and creditor account It is half-a-century since they came to with life, and there is a rich balance on gether, and do you think they see each the other side ; winters they have passed other with the same eyes with which any through, and dark days, and many bitter ordinary stranger regards them? Do you baptisms of experience, but if memory think he notices the wart upon her chin ? keeps count of these they are only jotted or that she has acquired such a rotundity down to be read against all the springs, that it is quite a little journey to walk and the summers, and the rich autumns, round her? No, not he! And even if he and the sunshiny days, and the affluence did, what would that matter to him? Do of good, with which God has so bountiyou suppose she sees him merely the lame fully enriched them. Well, of all the man--so crippled with rheumatism that tricks of memory that I know, none are he cannot hobble without two sticks? or equal to those which she plays with such bent-shouldered and wrinkled, as he ap- ! jolly old couples as Mr. and Mrs. Parpears to you and me at first sight? If tridge! Long life to them, and may memyou do, you are completely mistaken. ory play such tricks with us all ! When they married, Partridge was the finest young man in his parish, and as for
PLEASURES OF CONTENTMENT. Mrs. Partridge, (Miss Hare she was then,) the ancient postman recollects with a HAVE a rich neighbor that is always chuckle, even now, how he used to besiege so busy that he has no leisure to laugh: her father's door on Valentine's Day with the whole business of his life is to get a thunder-storm of knocks, and a shower of money, and more money, that he may still letters. Old people said of them that they get more and more money. He is still were “ the handsomest couple the sun ever drudging on, saying what Solomon says, shone on," and thanks to memory, that | " The diligent hand maketh rich.” And which they were to each other then, they it is true, indeed; but he considers not are now; nay, even much more, for they that it is not in the power of riches to have gleaned and garnered up through the make a man happy: for it was wisely said long experience of their pilgrimage, mem- by a man of great observation, “ that ories which have outshone mere youth there be as many miseries beyond riches and beauty, holy memories of sorrow and as on this side of them." And yet Heaven suffering, of love and joy, of kindness and deliver us from pinching poverty, and sympathy, and mutual forbearance, which, grant that, having a competency, we may like links in the golden chain of life, have be content and thankful. Let us not rebound them the more tenderly and the pine, or so much as think the gifts of God more inseparably together. Half-a-cen- unequally dealt, if we see another abound tury, which has made them feeble and with riches, when, as God knows, the ailing, which has silvered their hair and cares that are the keys that keep those dimmed their sight, has given them new riches hang often so heavily at the rich and better charms in each other's eyes. man's girdle, that they clog him with Their transfiguration has already begun; weary days and restless nights, even when they entertain angels unawares : so much others sleep quietly. We see but the outtruer, so much nobler, is the love which side of the rich man's happiness ; few conhas stood the test of trial,—the love of the sider him to be like the silk-worm, that, old married pair,—than that of the mere when she seems to play, is at the same youthful lover, roseate and smiling though time spinning her own bowels, and coliit may appear. Yes, of a truth, and as to suming herself. And this many rich men our old Partridge couple, memory's tricks do, loading themselves with corroding on them are all pleasant ones. Some way cares to keep what they have already got. or other she hides what is unsightly from Let us, therefore, be thankful for health them. Troubles they have had, but mem- and competence, and above all for a quiet ory keeps no account of them,-if she conscience.-Izaak Walton.
TROUBLES AND ADVENTURES OF
(though nobody would have ventured to
call them so to us then, nor we to ourYOUNG HOUSEKEEPERS.
selves,) heads for more than a dozen years HEN Jane, of just twenty, marries of such households as I have described. I
her adored Henry of twenty-seven, had lately a visit from this my excellent and enters upon an entirely new house- Joanna, whom I had not seen for many hold, she has certain troubles with her years. We are now both staid matrons, ménage; but they are all of them troubles on what is cruelly called the wrong side of a laughable kind. Different it is with of fifty, which, though it does not by any Jane when she chances to have taken pity means imply the garrulity of old age, on some maturer bachelor who has for brings out yet certainly a disposition to several years been keeping house him- dwell more on the past than the present, self-keeping it, of course, with the as- and to find exceedingly funny and racy sistance of some superior servant or house- what fails to extract a smile from the keeper, who has gradually acquired his grave, wise, crammed, and used-up chilentire confidence, and begun to feel as if dren of the present generation. she were half a mistress. Great, usually, pecially dwelt, my cousin Joanna and I, is the consternation of such a household on our anticipated and actual troubles, when the master announces that he is when, as girls--she twenty-one, and I about to place a lady over it. In some nineteen-we made common cause with cases there is no mean show of resistance, our respective and respected bachelors. as if he were reviving some antiquated She told me that a month before her marclaim to independence, or inaking a posi- riage her intended had amused her, at least tive aggression upon some established she tried then to be amused, with an acright. The domestics go about the house count of his great dread and hesitation with a sulky, careless, you-may-do-as-you- in announcing the coming change to his like kind of air. The master is made to domestics ; that he had frequently risen feel as if his importance were quite with the determination to get it over, cost gone.
what it might, then sunk down again He was a gentleman—a real quiet gen- abashed, and feeling as if the very pictleman—the highest praise they have to be- tures in the room were looking down on stow on a bachelor master; but what is he him with contempt ; then he would get now? As for the expected lady, it is not outside of the door, and his courage would difficult to establish the saddest anticipa- | again ooze out on the way. It never tions regarding her. The consequence is, seemed to occur to the simple man that that poor Jane, who has hitherto seen he might have summoned the chief actuary nothing in matrimony but a new name and into his august presence, and ensconcing a conglomeration of flounces, orange blos- | himself in his armn-chair, and assuming a som, and budding importance, plunges, at superhuman firmness of tone, whatever her home-coming, into a sea of troubles his heart might be saying to it, announce for which she is totally unprepared.
to her the awful fact in as few and sucJane, in short, in such a case, is an in- cinct words as those used by the immortal truder, and she meets the usual fate of Dumbiedykes on a like occasion, desiring intruders. There is a phalanx arrayed her at the same time to make it known to against her, through which she must fight the others, her inferiors; and before she her way with such courage and dexterity as had time to recover from her astonishment, she may. What is very provoking, her re- dismiss her with a magnificent wave of spectable partner is generally quite insen- the hand. At length, as the matter could sible to the difficulties she has to en- no longer brook delay, one day when the counter. Under the happy delusion, that domestics were at dinner, he, not knowing he has his household in entire subjection, over-distinctly how he got there, found he cannot imagine, or readily be brought himself desperately clutching the handle to see, that his young bride has anything of the hall-door, and in another instant inore to do than quietly assume an empire there he stood like an apparition, face to which will be willingly yielded to her. face with the domestics, who were busily
This, or something of the sort, was just employed in eating, and cheerfully talking what happened to my cousin Joanna and together. But what he did say after all myself, who both married old bachelors, his conning over and hesitation, he has
not now the most distant idea, further than dinner again, making the mutton disappear this, that it was as different as possible as if he was eating for a wager. from what he meant to say. Also, the The young damsel, the third domestic effect was so entirely different, at least on in this hitherto happy family, amazed at the principal person concerned, the con- the unusual apparition of the master at troller of the household, that he felt quite dinner-time, and having a confused notion sorry, almost repentant, for being the cause that something was wrong, and that he of inflicting so much pain, nay, and even must have come to find fault, rose from began to doubt his right to be his own her seat the instant he appeared, and withmaster; for instead of Houncing or looking out waiting to hear his mission, retreated daggers, for which he was quite prepared, to the further end of the apartment, pulled the poor thing laid down her knife and out a drawer from which she took a fork, pushed herself a little way from the woolen stocking, and began to darn it as table, leaned back in her chair, crossed hastily as if her master had come to scold her legs and folded her arms, then with a her for eating her dinner instead of attendslow and very slight shake of the head, ing to his work. The subsidence of all and in a pathetic, resigned tone of voice, this excitement, as in more important cases, she said : Well, that's the loss of a good bore no proportion whatever to the seemplace to me!' Having uttered these few ing violence of its extent; and when, next and simple words, embodying a conclusion day, the master, having recovered from the that was evidently quite clear to herself, effects of the grand effort, found leisure she relapsed into silence, only giving evi- and composure enough to explain that the dence of the strong inward conflict by a change was to make no change, and that certain swinging of one leg, a motion all, he hoped, would go on exactly as bealways indicating, even on mournful occa- fore, then they said that they hoped so too, sions, a decided tincture of rebellious- that nothing would be wanting on their part,
and the like. And so the whole passed The serving-man, meanwhile—he who off much like an explanation after a duel worked when he liked in the garden, and or a parliamentary skirmish, leaving the as he liked at many other things—in no- matter as it was before, only somewhat wise burdened, but with too much leisure, more unintelligible. had been in the act of conveying a huge When the domestics found time to conpiece of boiled mutton to his mouth, when sult quietly together, and to view the from his master's words it became evident change in all its bearings, they soon became to his then bewildered, and at no time very wonderfully reconciled to it, and hopeful for bright senses, that a mistress was about the future. One thing, however, seriously to be placed over him. The fork with the disquieted them, and it was no wonder. It piece of mutton on it stopped short within so happened that among several wives a few inches of his mouth, which, already lately come to the neighborhood, not one open more than wide enough to receive it, had turned out satisfactorily. One had now dilated to an immense gape, while his proved a scold, another had taken to strong eyes became vacantly fixed on his master. waters, a third was gay and extravagant. Thus he sat for a few seconds, during Now, I could not but admit to my cousin which it is impossible to say what visions Joanna that here had been just cause of may have passed through his mind of apprehension. She afterward learned active young wives suddenly appearing at that the chances in her case had been disthe back-door when they should have been cussed rather a desponding manner sitting in the drawing-room. However owing to the above cause, when our friend this may be, the thought of either a dis- Thomas, the serving-man, ventured 10 missal or
a voluntary departure never suggest, that as so many had turned out seemed to enter into his calculations. On ill, it was all the more likely that one now the contrary, evidently determined to brave would turn out well. Here was a stroke the worst, his features suddenly relaxed; of the most consummate wisdom, quite he drew in his chair so near the table as deserving of the fulfillment it received, for scarcely to leave room for himself; then, my cousin Joanna speedily became imwith a general wriggle of the whole body, mensely popular in the household, and, said: “Well, I'm no carin', if so be that moreover, continued so; and Thomas, in she 's a good one;" and set himself to his after years, used frequently to refer quite
exultingly to the distinguished success of slight to me. I am quite sure, if she his first plunge into the doctrine of could have roasted the bit of meat he was chances.
to eat, and left mine raw, she would have My bachelor was a person of a different done so. stamp from my cousin Joanna's. His When my first baby came, then began custom was to get over rather than dwell the great tug of war. In
pursuance of my on a painful task; and he professed, more- ill-luck, I had hired as nurse-maid a forover,-an empty boast in any bachelor, I bidding-looking Highland woman, who had fear,-to have his household in entire sub- been thrust upon me as a perfect treasure, jection. However, I used to remark in which must have been meant in the unhim a certain nervous twitching of the palatable sense of an exercise of patience. mouth and eyes, when he was in the pres. She had a flat face, a low forehead, and a ence of his, to me, awful housekeeper ; high temper. While I was still in all the and when she had retired, I would rally pomp of darkened rooms, doctors, nurses, him on this symptom of her control. He mothers, and water-gruels, the most awful met the jest with an indignant denial of reports of explosions in the lower regions its foundation ; but to this I never could reached me. As if she had been bone of give credence. When he announced to our bone, the Highlander, with all the this formidable personage the event about pride of her race, resented every word to take place, she affected to be quite uttered against her lady and her darling pleased, and said she had always preferred baby; and it being the dayly custom of the to have a mistress,“ provided she were a other to throw out such taunts as that the reasonable person ”—a fling of which the precious child was “a poor ill-thriven ominous character was more apparent to thing," there always ensued a fierce duel me than to him. I had had at first sight of words, ending in a drawn battle between a disagreeable impression regarding this Highland pride and Lowland impertinence. woman, for she was far from prepossessing At length the contention waxed so hot, in her aspect; but I finally entered upon that my husband was forced one day to my new course of life with anything rather come to the rescue. He descended in than a disposition to dispute her suprema- wrath, and dethroned the ruler of the cy. Indeed, so great was my inexperience, mansion, without listening to a word from and so little store did I set by the charac- | her in arrest of judgment. ter of mistress, that she might have con After her departure, I gave myself over tinued to rule, so long as she saved me to a succession of minor rulers, who, seeing trouble, and did not do anything positively my weak side, served me apparently well, offensive. But I was not to be let off in and saved me all trouble, even that of
maintaining an orderly household, for they One day, if, in fear of being thought not unfrequently enacted “ high life below stingy, I ordered for the hall-dinner nearly stairs,” kept untimely hours, and even enough to dine a troop, she would tell me gave balls in our absence—at one of which with a scornful laugh that they could eat the cook danced out my husband's new “the double of that;" and the next, she slippers in a single night! Of course, they would try me with the most insulting pro- all made great eyes, and could not think posals of scanty fare for the dining-room. how the thing happened; but one of them, Her good-humor was far more portentous afterward smitten, turned king's evidence. than her frowns. When she waddled into | I should have dismissed them all, but my presence, filling the whole doorway, indolence prevailed; till, finding myself and wreathed in smiles-her smiles!—I still worse deceived and defrauded, I was was sure to come off second-best in the en- forced to an entire change of tactics. counter. Crafty and primmed as she was, I now took a totally opposite turn, and she did not even save her strength for a instead of suspecting nothing, I suspected protracted race, but left me at once no- everything, and resolved to inspect everywhere. But the most provoking thing of thing, and so constantly worried myself all was her extreme devotion to my hus- and my servants, poking into every corner, band. He was utterly faultless in short, and spying mischief where there was none, except in having married me. She de- that they very soon took to deceiving me, lighted to serve him in every way, but and laughing at my expense.
If they most of all where she could convey a wished to hide anything from me, they