* Idols, and out of wild and lonely flowers, Of waving trees, and dreamed uncounted hours, I loved all solitude - but little thought To spend I know not what of life, remote From all communion with existence, save The maniac and his tyrant; had I been Their fellow, many years ere this had seen My mind, like theirs, corrupted to its grave; But who hath seen me writhe, or heard me rave ? Perchance in such a cell we suffer more Than the wrecked sailor on his desert shore; Scarce twice the space they must accord my bier. What though he perish, he may lift his eye, Yet do I feel at times my mind decline, But with a sense of its decay: - I see Unwonted lights along my prison shine, And a strange demon, who is vexing me With pilfering pranks and petty pains, below The feeling of the healthful and the free; But much to One, who long hath suffered so, Sickness of heart, and narrowness of place, And all that may be borne, or can debase. I thought mine enemies had been but man, But spirits may be leagued with them all Earth Abandons - Heaven forgets me; in the dearth Of such defence the Powers of Evil can, It may be, tempt me further, and prevail Against the outworn creature they assail. Why in this furnace is my spirit proved Like steel in tempering fire? because I loved? Because I loved what not to love, and see, Was more or less than mortal, and than me. that is o'er; I once was quick in feeling My scars are callous, or I should have dashed My brains against these bars as the sun flashed In mockery through them; - if I bear and bore. The much I have recounted, and the more Which hath no words, 'tis that I would not die And sanction with self-slaughter the dull lie Which snared me here, and with the brand of shame Stamp Madness deep into my memory, And woo Compassion to a blighted name, Sealing the sentence which my foes proclaim. No- it shall be immortal! — and I make A future temple of my present cell, From long infections of a den like this, Where the mind rots congenial with the abyss, Adores thee still;- and add that when the towers And battlements which guard his joyous hours Of banquet, dance, and revel, are forgot, Or left untended in a dull repose, This this shall be a consecrated spot! But Thou- when all that Birth and Beauty throws CHILDE HAROLD'S ADIEU TO ENGLAND. "ADIEU, adieu! my native shore The Night-winds sigh, the breakers roar, Yon Sun that sets upon the sea Good Night! "A few short hours and He will rise Its hearth is desolate; Wild weeds are gathering on the wall; "Come hither, hither, my little page! But dash the tear-drop from thine eye; Our ship is swift and strong; Our fleetest falcon scarce can fly More merrily along." 'Let winds be shrill, let waves roll high, I fear not wave nor wind; Yet marvel not, Sir Childe, that I For I have from my father gone, And have no friend, save these alone, But thee 'My father blessed me fervently, Yet did not much complain; But sorely will my mother sigh 66 Till I come back again.' — Enough, enough, my little lad! Such tears become thine eye; If I thy guileless bosom had, Mine own would not be dry. "Come hither, hither, my staunch yeoman, Why dost thou look so pale? Or dost thou dread a French foeman ? 'Deem'st thou I tremble for my life? Sir Childe, I'm not so weak; But thinking on an absent wife Will blanch a faithful cheek. 'My spouse and boys dwell near thy hall, Along the bordering lake, And when they on their father call, What answer shall she make?' |